Changing My Habits
It was hard for me to accept defeat. I enjoyed sports, but not when I lost a point or a game. If I got hurt during the game, that would make it worse.| I could feel the anger surge within in an instant fit of reaction. This is when I was at my weakest point. The anger wouldn’t let me think straight and clear. Of course it didn’t last long, but by then it would be too late. I would feel bad about my temper, and it would be a headache to deal with later. With regular practice and deepening of meditation, this behavior and angry temperament began to change. I did specific meditative techniques to cool down the anger and excessive reaction and thought, and they worked. Losing a point or an entire game is no more an issue for me. |
In fact, I have stopped getting too attached or obsessed about anything I need to do. If things work for me, I am happy. But more importantly, if they don’t, I don’t fret or get into temper anymore. I’ve found this to be a very enjoyable way to live. I think meditation automatically changes a person’s habits and behaviors because it improves the personality and de-conditions the mind in a positive way. I’ve learnt to pay attention to my inner energy, and study how it works and what makes it stronger. When this is looked after, then I know that my well-being - whether emotional, spiritual, mental or physical - is also automatically taken care of. |
