Self Discipline
One of the most beautiful things about meditation is its complete and total freedom. No one will tell you what is right and wrong, or what is good or bad.| You decide for yourself based on your own experiences. But how is it possible that every individual can have their own idea of what is good and healthy? Once your Kundalini (inner energy) is awakened you start experiencing your true self in the light of the spirit, and in that light you can see everything about yourself clearly. Introspection becomes easy, and you will really see what effects you, and how. One of the best things I got from meditation was a sense of self-discipline. But, before I could really become strong within myself, I had to see what was happening inside. In my meditations I began to try and introspect, and I slowly saw where I needed to improve, and then the self-discipline came naturally. In other words, I saw that some of my behavior was harmful or not good for me in some ways, and then understandably I felt the desire to change. I wanted something different for myself, that was the most important step. Then, the more I meditated the more I found a strength inside, and then one day it became that whatever I wanted to change, I simply changed. It started out small, for example I have never been an early riser. So many times people tried to prove to me that "if you get up early, your whole day will be different"… and on a mental level, I knew they were probably right, but I just didn’t feel up for it. And only recently it dawned to me, that by not being able to get up, I basically accept that I am weaker than my laziness. But if I know I am in control of myself, then how can I be weaker? So I realized the time has come to develop my self-discipline and rise above all the controls of body, conditionings, thoughts and take over. |
I started with a week of getting up at 5am as an experiment to see what it can do for me. And yes, while it wasn’t always easy, and I can’t say that each meditation was significantly better than the one at 10am, somehow I did feel a change. Other things that I couldn’t work out before improved. To be specific – I have never been able to cook. I had no interest, or sometimes if I did, I was too lazy to look for a recipe, get the products and spend time in the kitchen. But when I started getting up earlier, there was just this sort of lightness all around me. Very hard to explain, but it seemed like I’m in the vehicle and there are no obstacles, so I started with a simple pie, then a soup, and so on…
The point of this was that one who has true self-discipline feels comfortable with whatever he has and wherever he is. But all this should not be done with suffering, absolutely not. Meditation is spontaneous, natural, and thus all the methods to improve yourself have to be too. During these little exercises I treated myself as my own pupil and they have helped me to become more decisive and more in control. If I want to sleep in I able, but if I need to get up early, I can do that with the same easiness. Being able to do the things I need and still be happy in any circumstance gave me a new kind of freedom, one to enjoy, and really have fun no matter where I am, or what I am doing. |
